Monday, January 19, 2009

I Have Funny Mirrors in My House

I have written about this before but it is still relevant and bares repeating. I have funny mirrors. You the kind at carnivals that distort the reflection. Well, I have them in my house. I think I look skinner than I am. I look at my reflection at home and think, "Not bad". Then, I see myself in a store window or look at pictures or on TV and think, "Who is that fat girl?" I have delusions of grandeur.

Now, my therapist says that it is healthy to have a good self-image. It is not healthy if the distortion is leading you into a physically unhealthy situation. That's where I am at. Blood pressure up. Bad cholesterol up. Good cholesterol down. Now, I have added acid reflux to the mix too. No fun. And I want to know how I went from this 6 years ago:

to this now:

So, I have got to do something and you all are my something. I am going to bare my soul to my friends and the blogosphere and say the number. THE number. Here is goes...I am 5'3" and I weigh 216.5!! There...I said it. Now, once a month, I will let you know how I am doing. Accountability is your task. And that first picture, is going on my vision board .

Now, this goal is in direction contradiction to my other blog so for these posts, pay no attention to the fat girl behind the other curtain:-)


  1. Best of luck!!! Happy to help. Totally here to support you!!!!!!

  2. Good luck! I know you can do it!

  3. Good luck,Susie! I think a lot of us need to get on the bandwagon!

    I have acid reflux can affect you negatively in more ways than you can imagine. So definitely try to get that under control.

  4. I am RIGHT there with you!!! I have actually coined the condition "reverse anorexia". Good luck, I'm trying too (at 5'1 and 187 lbs - but actually was 203 before I got pregnant - baby is now 10 weeks old)

  5. I'm here for you friend! I finally got hit hard this time last year and lost 30lbs. I am back at Weight Watchers to get to goal. It is hard but, I have faith in you. Love ya' new friend!!

  6. I love how sweet and transparent you are to share this with us - I will be praying for your journey!